I’ve had an absolutely exhausting but exhilarating, exciting and depressing last several days.
Last Friday a sweet, sweet man from our church passed away. I had gotten a call a week ago Sunday that he wasn’t doing well, and when I went out to see him he told me that he was tired of fighting. Hal had suffered from a nearly fatal heart attack 23 years ago, and has since struggled with arthritis and a wide variety of other health issues – but always had a smile on his face. Even after he recently got diagnosed with cancer, Hal still exemplified what it meant to have a life of joy through the whole time. He was exhausted after his chemotherapy treatments, and when some of the side-effects of that exhaustion set in, the doctors stopped the chemotherapy, and it was just a matter of time. One week ago Sunday was the first time I had ever seen Hal crying. He was crying because he knew he’d be leaving his family, but told me he wasn’t scared of dying, had no regrets, no amends to make, and nothing left unsaid. I read scripture and he and his wife wept, we prayed together, and when I left on Sunday I told him, “I’ll see you tomorrow.” He looked at me and said “Lord willing.”
The next day, Hal had rallied. We laughed together, and had a great visit. I didn’t go out Tuesday or Wednesday, and on Thursday we got a call that he was doing very poorly. I could hardly believe it was the same person on Thursday. His eyes were open, but he was completely unresponsive. I cried with his wife and son when I prayed as we left, and when I came back to the office I told Laura and Paul that I had seen Hal for the last time this side of heaven. At 3:30 am Friday morning I got the call that Hal had passed away.
So – my weekend went – Home appraiser coming to our house Friday morning. He had told my wife 8:00 am but wrote 10:00 am on his calendar, so at about 8:45 I got a little perturbed and called him. He came rushing over. Then – visiting with Hal’s family on Friday – what a great visit. Tragic circumstances, but a sweet time as they shared memories of their dad. I needed a nap, so I fell asleep, interrupted a couple of times by the bank calling to get some more details on the loan, then off to the church to set up for a wedding rehearsal. Wedding rehearsal that night.
Saturday, I got to the church early to run through my sermon and make sure the church was open for the vow renewal ceremony. I went home, changed into my suit, and came back to help everyone get everything together, and then had the vow renewal ceremony. Then, since my parents had my two oldest kids for the weekend, a trip to St. Cloud to pick them up. Lots of family there, so it wasn’t a quick trip.
Sunday we had our church service, and then the baptism service. What a sweet time that was – 9 people baptized and 130-140 people came to support them. What a blessing! Well, except for the hornets that stung several people, that wasn’t so good – but other than that, it was great. Elissa’s parents came over afterwards, and I visited for a little bit, then excused myself for a nap. After I woke up I scrambled to the softball game for our last 2 games of the year. We lost the first game 21-18, but since the other team scored 12 runs in the first inning, we came back ok. We were playing with 8 people – 3 in the outfield and a pitcher and 3 infielders and a catcher. Not ideal. Then, right after the third inning Julie Peterson told me I needed to call home. Caleb had cut his toe on the treadmill – so off home to take him to the emergency room where we spent the next 3 hours waiting for an opening to get him superglued back together. (I think they call it durabond, but close enough!)
Yesterday – preparation for the funeral. The Barrett family is very musical, so we spent some time getting the stage ready for them to sing at Hal’s funeral, then the visitation began at 5:00. I didn’t get home till 9:00 pm, and back this morning for the funeral.
I’m beat! I put together my Bible Study class for tonight already this morning, and now after the funeral I’ll start working on Sunday’s message.
If you read this, and think of it, pray for me this week! Usually when I’m tired, I’m cranky and susceptible to temptation. Pray that God gives me strength, and that I look for the ways out.